Hello everybody, this is from Jason Metzger, in his letter from 5-14-06


I grew up in a small town in Norco, California. I guess as a child I was a people person and a lot of people liked me .I worked horses and would catch and sell just about every farm animal anyone would give me. I love animals and the outdoors a lot. When I was young I never got in real and serious trouble till I started running away from home .I did run away to the rivers in Norco, most of the time with my dog and Horse. Then a few days later my Mom and dad would come and get me and take me home.
My serious problems did not really start till I ran away with two others kids and we stole three horses and ran to the river again. When the police finally caught me a week and a half later, I started using drugs and drinking and the courts put me in a placement I was supposed to be there six months. But I ran away again and went home. T his Happened three times before I finally when to C.Y.A. I think from this point on, my life has gone to hell. I say this because; I was introduced to many different forms of abuse. But I think what affected me the most was the racial abuse I received mostly by the counselors using others inmates/kids. Let me give you one example: One time a black kid took a new pair of pants from me and I went to the counselor to get help to get them back. Then, a few black counselors locked me in a cell unit with other black kids and made us fight to see who get to keep the pants. There were a lot of racially motivated situations like that .That caused me to be the person I am today. I don’t hate all races. But I won’t say that there are no races I hate. After getting out of C.Y.A, that experience changed me a lot. It has been about 15 years and when I remember, I still get upset a lot. I’ve in trouble a lot ever since that time, mostly nothing serious. But never once in all the times I been in trouble have there been any serious effort made or opportunity given to me to better my life through rehabilitation. Not even to this day. I am not a bad person. But I guess there room for improvement in everyone’
s life, when they end up here. But who in society cares? At this point in my life, I ‘m trying to figure out if I even care anymore? I think I do. But I feel like the CDC wants to keep me as a number to keep them in getting paid. I am here now for receiving stolen property. It was listed as a felony, when it should have never been. My ex girlfriend put junk she stole at a gas station in the back of my truck. She pleaded guilty to Felony commercial burglary and got 30 days, in 26 days, she went home. I got charge with felony receiving stolen Property. I plead not guilty. But somehow was found guilty and got 5 years at 80%.I had no part in this ,I was trying to get my life together, Then, in one night, all of this happened, my truck ,my tools and my clothes were taken from me, and I have been placed in Prison. After doing almost five years for something I had no part in, This State is going to give me $200.00 and send me out to society to start my life once again after they have taken everything I had away. What a joke. This state, this society would have shown me more mercy if they have just killed me. I feel like the only thing CDC/society hasn’t done is killing me and after what they have put me through, I am not scared. There is no rehabilitation,, education, or vocation, or anything here except 23 hours a day in an 8X12 cell. The perfect breeding ground for hate and animosity. We can’t even find humanity in others –animals’ society is creating in us. We are locked up and abused for years as society approves of through the actions of the CDC in countless ways. In here is a struggle everyday to just keep my sanity in all this insanity, in all this inhumanity. But at least, I’m one of the very few who are trying. Family and friends mean a lot to me. This is the American Society; I feel this is something no longer I want to be proud of.
If you want to write to Jason Metzger, please feel free to send an e-mail to talking2thewallz@yahooo.com .If you want him to answer you back, please post your address on the same e-mail..

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